G'Kar tries to avoid capture by the Centauri while continuing his search. Delenn urges the Rangers to strike against the Shadows.
"Personal Log, January 8, 2261, Doctor Stephen Franklin reporting. It's been fourteen days since Captain Sheridan was presumed killed on Z'ha'dum - nine days since Mr. Garibaldi disappeared on patrol outside the station. MedLab's quiet these days. The League of Non-Aligned Worlds has broken up and everyone's going back to their homeworlds to prepare for the next stage of war. We know the enemy's gonna strike back. Rumor has it that this time's gonna be the last time. This time, they're gonna end it. All we can do now is wait for the other shoe to drop, or try and find something useful to do before the end. And right now, short of hand-holding or a sympathetic ear, I can't think of one damn thing..."
Lennier enters MedLab as Franklin is recording and tells him that he is committing a breach of protocol, but that there is a problem with Delenn.
Sheridan refuses to believe that he's dead, and insists it's a trick. Lorien asks him what the last thing he remembers is. Sheridan only remembers falling, seemingly forever. Lorien tells him that nothing goes on forever, and that everyone hits bottom sooner or later. Lorien asks Sheridan if he hit the bottom of the abyss, but Sheridan doesn't know. Either Sheridan did, and he is dead, or he didn't, and is still falling. Lorien also suggests he could be in-between, and Sheridan asks what he could be in between.
Sheridan grabs Lorien and demands to know what's going on, if he's behind it all. "Who are you?" he asks, and remembers part of his dream.
"You're closer now, aren't you? Yes, I see you are. But closer to tick or closer to tock? I don't know. Only time will tell. And here, between the moments, we have all the time in the world..."
Marcus comes in from the outside, and reports to G'Kar that the Centauri guards are still chasing them. G'Kar doesn't know why, and Marcus explains that he is worried for exactly that reason. G'Kar says he thinks Marcus worries too much, but wants to know why he's there. Marcus says he came to look after him in case he got into trouble. G'Kar tells Marcus that he is planning to go back later and find out more about Garibaldi's Starfury, but Marcus offers to do it instead, since the guards are all too eager to find G'Kar. Marcus asks G'Kar why he is risking so much for Garibaldi, and G'Kar tells him that he is doing it because Garibaldi was his friend, and he never had a friend who wasn't a Narn. Marcus says he's doing it because he never had a friend who was a Narn - when he had them at all. G'Kar picks up Marcus' pike and looks at it, accidentally extending it while doing so. G'Kar says he likes the weapon very much.
The Centauri guards are with the bartender, looking through several photos of Narns that may have been involved in the altercation in the bar, and he eventually finds a photo of G'Kar and is able to identify him. The guards tell him there is a reward on G'Kar - dead or alive. Meanwhile, the man from the bar awakens - due to Marcus dripping water in his face. Marcus threatens him, and demands to know where he got the piece of the Starfury.
Delenn arrives in Captain Sheridan's quarters, where Franklin is going through Sheridan's personal effects on Ivanova's orders. While looking through Sheridan's files, he found something he felt Delenn should see. He hands her a data crystal which she plays as soon as Franklin leaves.
Marcus explains to G'Kar that the man got the location of the Starfury from Interplanetary Expeditions, and that person would get one tenth of the purchase price. G'Kar says he plans to go to the place where the ship was found to search out for more information. G'Kar says that Marcus should go back to Babylon 5 and search for the person from Interplanetary Expeditions, and that Marcus should leave before he gets offended. G'Kar says he needs Babylon 5's resources more than he needs Marcus' help. Marcus leaves as G'Kar lays down to sleep.
Delenn and Lennier stand before the gathering of Rangers, and Delenn tells them that, even though most of their work has, until this time, gone unnoticed, they must strike a blow that will serve as an example to all the others. Lennier explains to them that the League of Non-Aligned Worlds has dissolved, and that they must find those who still believe in their cause. He says they need a single rallying cry, and Delenn wants it to be the Rangers. She says their plan is to wait seven days, for any other ships, and then attack Z'ha'dum. They have a small chance of success, but they must try anyway. She tells the Rangers that, with this attack, she is offering them the same chance to fly that she heard in Sheridan's log.
Sheridan, still trekking through the tunnels in Z'ha'dum, finds the fire he set when he first woke up. He realizes he has come full circle, and Lorien says everyone does eventually. Sheridan knows there must be some way out, but Lorien says that the only way out is to surrender to Tock. Sheridan says he can't die, since he must aid the Army of Light in the war, to prevent billions of deaths.
"It's a terrible thing when your children fight," Lorien tells him. "I warned the others, but they didn't listen. They never listen."
"Your... children?" Sheridan asks.
"Metaphorically speaking. Those who came after me. Children. Younger siblings."
"How long have you been here?"
"A long time. So long... I was old when the molecules of your world joined and called themselves land and sea and fish and man."
"You're one of the First Ones."
"No, not one of the First Ones. I am The First One."
"Did you know you have a Vorlon inside you?" Lorien asks. "Well, a piece of one."
"If you go to Z'ha'dum, you will die," Sheridan remembers Kosh saying. "Jump... Jump now..."
"Kosh..." Sheridan realizes.
"Is that its name? I think I met it once, long ago."
"He told me to jump. Did he know..."
"That I was here? Almost certainly."
"They can break off pieces of their conciousness and put it into other organisms. It allows them to travel hidden through the galaxy, using others as their eyes and ears. Kosh is in you, and he's part of the problem. You're the other part. You're both still clinging to life, both afraid to let go. You must lay down the burden of life, both of you, and surrender yourself to Tock."
"No, I can't," Sheridan says. "The others need me..."
"You can't turn away from death simply because you're afraid of what might happen without you. That's not enough. You're not embracing life, you're fleeing death. So you're caught in-between, unable to go forward or backward. Your friends need what you can be when you are no longer afraid - when you know who you are, and why you are, and what you want. When you are no longer looking for reasons to live, but can simply be."
"I can't... I don't know how to do that."
"Then I cannot help you, and you will be caught forever in-between. You must let go. Surrender yourself to death. The death of flesh. The death of fear. Step into the abyss... and let go."
"It's getting darker," Sheridan says, and the light around him starts to vanish.
"I know. You're close, friend. Very close. It's easy to find something worth dying for. Do you have anything worth living for?"
"I can't see you anymore..."
"As it should be."
"What if I fall? How will I know if you'll catch me?"
"I caught you before."
"What if I die?"
"I cannot create life, but I can breathe on the remaining embers. It may not work."
"But I can hope..."
As the world around him disappears completely, the words of Lorien continue to echo. "Hope is all we have."
Sheridan then begins to reexperience his emergence onto the balcony above the abyss, and his leap into it, as Lorien's voice echoes, asking him again, "Do you have anything worth living for?"
While he falls, he remembers the voice of someone, a long time ago, on the original White Star. "Sleep now. I will watch, and catch you if you should fall."
Lorien stands over the body of Sheridan, outstretched at the bottom of the abyss, after Sheridan delivers his answer, in the form of a single word.
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